Does “slippery” have to do with slippers? (Suddenly “slippers” feels like a weird word. Why did I just notice the “weird word” alliteration?) This is what off the cuff writing reads like… I suppose. I don’t do much of this kind of writing any more because all of it—the writing—is for an audience. (As if this one isn’t, bah!) But there’s a truckload of digression in this kind of writing, and that’s what has happened here as well. I logged in to write about… what? The slippery nature of awareness, I think. Look away, and you are lost. “Lost in thought” is a good metaphor, now that I think about it. But now I have clear forgotten what I was meaning to write about… primarily, I think I miss writing. Writing on social media brings attention (=oxygen), and while I don’t deny its allure, it’s also somewhat stymying. You end up keeping the “audience” in mind, and here I am somewhat freed of that. Who am I kidding? (Shouldn’t it be “whom?”)
I read a piece by Osho yesterday where he dismissed all systems that purported to explain the nature of reality. For a long while I was “steady” and established in my so-called system but then I was seduced by other systems that appeared more sophisticated. I suddenly felt that my own “homegrown” method was terribly naive. Anyhow, all roads lead to Rome, and it occurs to me that I have spent a good chunk of time trying seriously to “make sense of,” even as I have half-known that THAT is the first thing to be ditched. And I have likely written about this utterly fruitless endeavor so many times… and yet I have forgotten. Forgetfulness is the nature of the illusion, perhaps? I remember a line from Gurudev – the Self is attained by recognition.
All this to say that there is no method, DARN… except to be aware of one’s experience as it plays out. Ahh, that is what I came here to write about, now I remember! And this simple (not easy?) process of “being aware” requires energy, prAna. It’s the easiest thing to lapse into thought, imagination, nostalgia, dreams because being aware is not always fun, or enjoyable, or entertaining.
