Keyboard imaginings

Just blogging since I miss it so much. Can’t find anything to write about. Actually, that’s untrue. But everything has to be expressed with the reader in mind. Not strictly true. For instance, on some days, I yearn to write about Guruji. But I have this nagging fear that I’ll never be able to do justice to my sentiment. Oh, sentiment is such a small word. Emotion – another over-abused term. Well, whatever IT is that I feel for Him, I’ll never be able to express it right. So it stays in my head, manifests in a few text files under My Documents but never makes it here – the place that bears testimony to the Grace flowing through. Never mind, one day I’ll write about Him and it’ll be a piece that I’ll read again and again.

Some of the things He talks about – they’re brilliant. That’s what they are. So simple and put in such an elegant fashion – it is sheer beauty. I am always amazed at how Gurudev says things. Call them concepts, ideas, simple facts but the way he sums it up, they seem like the most beautiful expression anyone could ever come up with. He has spoken on countless topics and somehow hearing any tape of His puts things in so much the RIGHT perspective. Oh, I am such a HUGE fan/devotee of Guruji! We’re going to meet Him in Texas next week. Best part is, He is going to teach this course that is open to all. You don’t even have to have done the Basic AOL course to attend this one. A bunch of us are going to Texas; will be SO much of fun!!!

Last week, we were hearing His commentary on the Bhakti Sutras. One of the things He mentions (not in His words exactly, they’re so precise, so correct I could never reproduce them!), ‘Wisdom is that which makes it possible to live high ideals in day-to-day life’. I find this thought so liberating, so freeing… One does not need to forsake whatever ideals one believes in. And the wisdom that one gains through Sadhana, knowledge, Seva grants one the understanding to live those ideals in the mundane daily existence. He says, ‘There are people who remain in their centres, idealistic all the time. Then there are people who stay along the circumeference, stricly practical. The Bhakti Sutras are tiny aphorisms, strings that connect the centre to the circumeference and give hope to our life….’

Update: Not that this is something new to relate, but the first time I met Gurudev, I recall looking around and wondering why there was such clamour around me. People flying in from the other coast, taking days off, spending nights on uncomfortable lounges… all to meet Him. And I even recall the exact phrase that ran through my mind. Meeting Guruji is like chancing on a fresh-water spring in the middle of the forest. You keep coming back to take a sip from it. And my teacher adds, No matter how many people drink from it, how many times, the stream remains ever flowing, abundant, sweet and clear…