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Home-maker/Housewife..

I recall… Mummy or somebody else.. Most of the illnesses are a figment of our own imagination… Mummy is someone who, I feel, tends to be so completely sober… So totally focussed and who doesn’t get drawn into any emotional tangles… Hey, she’s over 50 and she’s my mother… Maybe she was just like this 25 years back or maybe she never revealed it to me, her internal struggles… Nevertheless, I hope that she doesn’t have to face those issues, if she ever did.. and I hope that she never has to feel low or blue or sad….Dear Mummy… she is the bestest thing that I could have had… Apart from Dad, of course… She is my first blessing or maybe Daddy is…. Chuck the fact that they were never the kinds to praise us to heavens or smother us with kisses and hugs… Well, Geetu also feels that she lost out on building her self-esteem… Lets’ face it, they are the most realistic people… They let us make our own choices right from our kiddie days… Never enforced their choices on us, be it studies, friends, clothes, tastes… And I am so thankful for that.. That today, I am proud of my choices, my tastes.. and I give a lot of credibility to them. Since my choices have been respected by my family, there’s nobody who I’d allow to denigrate my choices. Now that’s something I can probably take pride in…
Not to take myself seriously…. Is that so bloody simple?
Right now, I feel like I’ve been cut down to fit into this role of housewife… or more sweetly termed as homemaker… Well, at one point, I was grateful and craved for this hiatus.. Those crazy days at work! Right now, I feel like my world is shrinking… The world within my head is blowing out, expanding…. But my external world is growing smaller…. Unintentionally, I’ve started to feel like a housewife… limited by the walls of this house.. Chuck the histrionics!
What I feel is…. so many chores I end up doing… for me, for my husband… Make me feel more and more like these are mine to do… and not for us to share!
Ironing, washing, scrubbing, cleaning blah blah blah….
Well, I ain’t working and so this falls within my list of activities… Hey, this is just what I hate.. Just because I am NOT employed, does that mean that I am supposed to do ALL the household chores? Loser, even when you’re employed, you’re going to do them… so that’s EOA.