“Einmal ist kienmal”, says Tomas to himself. “What happens but once” says the German adage, “might as well not have happened at all”. If we have only one life to live, we might as well have not lived it at all.
I think that I am a creative person. I enjoy myself the most when I am reading a book. Or listening to music. Or designing a poster. Or thinking up an ad-campaign or publicity gig. Or making plans for an event… And I can’t, for the life of me, imagine myself being happy in a corporate environment. Coding for some company on the other side of the world. Or spending nights making Excel sheets and pie-charts. Or doing Powerpoint presentations to some stuffed-shirts. Don’t crucify me for all the inbuilt assumptions here; I am well aware of them!
I believe in free-format. I believe in free verse, free prose… uninhibited spirit and unfettered life. Why am I joining the MBA bandwagon? I wonder… In search of something conventional, something *safe and secure*, some shit like that. Why am I stifling my natural instincts? If only I had a stronger spine… Damn! Why is everything such a fog in my head??!!! Why is my writing so f#$^%&* self-conscious?
rileen says:
Well, we’re brought up on “better be safe than sorry”, aren’t we?
To which i sometimes say “don’t play it so safe that you’re sorry” – but (far) easier said than done.
I hope you don’t make choices that you later regret – all the best.
kein, btw
October 1, 2004 — 12:44 pm
Lakshmi says:
Thanks…:-)
October 4, 2004 — 11:37 am
savyasachi says:
It is this desire to be free that keeps me going in my work right now; otherwise I would have left for India and taken a random job long ago. And yes, I can feel the deep-seated insecurity in me, too…..but I keep telling myself to fight the instinct to do the conventional – lets see how successful I am…..
October 1, 2004 — 12:57 pm
savyasachi says:
I guess the important thing is – do you like any aspect of doing an MBA? If yes, then sure, go for it – no harm in being safe now, is there?
October 1, 2004 — 1:05 pm
Lakshmi says:
Sure I do… just that I sometimes wonder if it’s just a conventional option that I’m choosing.
October 4, 2004 — 11:38 am
savyasachi says:
I think there isn’t any reason to not choose a conventional career path, when you like what you do. It gives you a sense of security, and you are happy doing the work, too, so I say – GO FOR IT! 🙂
All the very best!
October 4, 2004 — 1:55 pm
Lakshmi says:
Thanks, Siddharth..:-)
I will need it!
October 5, 2004 — 9:37 am
hollowandempty says:
honey, it’s really ok to say FUCKING…I mean, no one is judging you.
Also, don’t worry about the fog, in your head, we have the same problem…but it goes away with the wind…when the seasons change, and right now, we are right smack in the middle of summer and autumn. Likewise, you are in a middle stage too.
Then again, what do i know?
October 1, 2004 — 1:48 pm
Lakshmi says:
🙂
October 4, 2004 — 11:38 am
fugney says:
Creativity is nessecary in any field. Managers, methinks, have to be very creative, because they have to constantly cut corners, and find new waves. They have to be good at problem solving, which means they have to be creative. Ok…… it’s different from the “designing a poster” creative…. but it’s still good fun. It’s also more likely to hold your interest for longer since you have more rules to play within… and hence greater challenges. Besides, the discipline that this kind of a field requires should also build character.
Now, if all that sounded like crap to you, might I add, that since you’re already in this, there’s no point going about it with a negative mindset? Don’t worry…. I think you’ll enjoy yourself.
October 2, 2004 — 12:31 am
Lakshmi says:
I kinda agree with you on the *creativity in management* bit. Thanks, anyways!
October 4, 2004 — 11:41 am
fugney says:
find new waves.
“ways”
October 2, 2004 — 12:32 am
deelight says:
You can be ‘creative’ in whatever you do Locks…you never know …maybe once you’re in the corporate world, you just may get opportunities to do things differently. I hope I’m proved right!
October 2, 2004 — 11:10 pm
Lakshmi says:
Yeah, I agree…
October 4, 2004 — 11:41 am
thefirstidiot says:
An MBA offers plenty of opportunities to be creative, me thinks. Though i am not the expert on MBAs 🙂
Talk to my dad, he claims that an MBA can be more creative than anything else 🙂 Though this was in the spirit of a joke, cause I said MBAs fudge stuff!!!!
Kidding….
October 3, 2004 — 8:05 pm
Lakshmi says:
Guess that’s one of things they do!
October 4, 2004 — 11:43 am
Lakshmi says:
Sure that’s creative, DD! I was referring to the coding that I did for 3 years! Never again unless I run out of all options…
Btw, I am not sure what you meant by When I first read your post on your GMAT exam thing I thought that was totally against the my perception(in this virtual world of LJ) of you, then I thought I might have perceived wrong…and now comes this post!!!
Huh?
October 4, 2004 — 11:40 am
Lakshmi says:
There’re a million things that I dunno and the scariest part is that that million includes my own self too. Not to sound arcane at all.. but I constantly surprise myself with my *volte-face* moves…
October 5, 2004 — 9:38 am