Sometimes I wonder how it would be to not exist. To be aware of the fact that I do not exist. Is that paradoxical? To observe all the activity around and be completely conscious of the fact that I am an external entity. Mind you, there is no sadness or fear associated with this feeling. On the contrary, it feels like a bit of fluff. One that floats, soars and drifts over all the dead wood. To be light, transparent and have just a soul which is all that it is… No possessions, no attachments, no body… Just a lasting silence and light. What a dream… and possibly that’s where I’ll end. No, there will be no end. Time is not a dimension which is moving. Instead it is boundless and infinite. And so I will remain in this Infinite space forever. Silent, bright and alive! And immortal.
rileen says:
Pass some of whatever you consumed before you made this post :-p
September 28, 2004 — 12:38 pm
Lakshmi says:
It came from within, Rileen.. not without!
September 28, 2004 — 12:48 pm
rileen says:
I know, i know …. was just kidding.
September 28, 2004 — 1:08 pm
tomlinsonian says:
hmmm..u ever read Carlos Castenada?
He (or his guru, Don Yuan, who is a wizard of 200 years or so) claims that even wizards die..and then, from outside the body, he makes the ‘spirit’ re-enter the body…
September 28, 2004 — 3:01 pm
Lakshmi says:
Not yet. Let me look him up next library visit..
September 28, 2004 — 8:30 pm
99kanitas says:
I think it was the previous Newsweek that talked about mind and body, an article made an interesting statement… how nothing else exists after people die. They just cease to exist. Rest is religion/consolation.
September 28, 2004 — 4:54 pm
Lakshmi says:
Yeah, everyone has a take on THE real thing…:-)
September 28, 2004 — 8:30 pm
lalunadiosa says:
For some reason this reminds me of Richard Bach…don’t know why….what you wrote seems to go way beyond what he has said….maybe it’s more like what Paulo Coelho writes….any which way babe this was a good piece….and now even I crave that lightness of being!!!!
September 28, 2004 — 6:55 pm
Lakshmi says:
Thanks… and so do I! Crave for that lightness, I mean…:-)
September 28, 2004 — 8:31 pm
Lakshmi says:
🙂
God is within, DD…:-)
*runs away before being disowned*
September 28, 2004 — 8:29 pm
Anonymous says:
even though Essence and Substance are different things, in this case, the thoughts, essentialy Essence, cannot exist without body, a Substance. You know, Cogito Ergo Sum and Dubito Ergo Sum, arguments by Decartes. “I think, therefore I am” and “I doubt, therefore I am”
September 28, 2004 — 8:32 pm
Lakshmi says:
Well, I am feeling my way around this philosophy so I am afraid there isn’t much I can contribute currently. The above was a flight of imagination, a *putting thoughts to paper* process…
September 28, 2004 — 8:44 pm
roopa1978 says:
To observe all the activity around and be completely conscious of the fact that I am an external entity.
You want to be God?
kidding!!!:)
September 28, 2004 — 9:34 pm
Lakshmi says:
God, this is turning out to be a contentious post!
September 29, 2004 — 6:26 am
hariputtar says:
Time is not a dimension which is moving. Instead it is boundless and infinite.
hmmm. is that true … time is not moving – u mean it has no *direction* ? boundless – well, as a concept anything that can be thought of numerically can be thought to be as large as *real* number set, or sth equivalent, and so on … but is *time* boundless. thats a question worth thinking about. is it a scientifically accepted fact, yet.
Transcendental Meditation : is about such out-of-body experiences, isnt it ?
September 28, 2004 — 10:39 pm
Lakshmi says:
Well, I think that it is a scientifically accepted fact that time like all other dimensions *is*, not moving in any direction. But this is *diffused* info, sorry! I need to read more on this, in specific.
TM is a meditation technique but how it feels… I am unsure. I don’t practise it.
September 29, 2004 — 6:28 am
hariputtar says:
if time was not going in either directions – will turning it back … put events in backwards order ? or not ? will gravitational pull appear like gravitational push ?
September 29, 2004 — 6:38 am
Lakshmi says:
🙂 Wrong person, Sonal… I wish I could answer your Q, though.
September 29, 2004 — 6:41 am
Lakshmi says:
Btw, isn’t it dark and early in your part of the world?
September 29, 2004 — 6:41 am
hariputtar says:
got up. have had my share of sleep.
September 29, 2004 — 6:43 am
Lakshmi says:
🙂
Welcome to today! I was here earlier..:-))
September 29, 2004 — 6:47 am
hariputtar says:
so is time directional ? i am coming from yesterday to today ?
or we just make it directional – since we cant conceptualize is otherwise. and once we can – we will be able to turn events back ?
September 29, 2004 — 6:49 am
Lakshmi says:
Mr. Ranjan, I am as curious as you are… and that’s about it. On the other hand, if this is yet another *trip*, I can talk about myself. Not about Time. Shall I?
September 29, 2004 — 6:57 am
fugney says:
Mind you, there is no sadness or fear associated with this feeling. On the contrary, it feels like a bit of fluff.
What makes you so certain?
To be light, transparent and have just a soul which is all that it is… No possessions, no attachments, no body… Just a lasting silence and light. What a dream… and possibly that’s where I’ll end. No, there will be no end. Time is not a dimension which is moving. Instead it is boundless and infinite. And so I will remain in this Infinite space forever. Silent, bright and alive! And immortal.
I don’t know why but I find this kinda frightening. I’d rather not contemplate on this. “goes back to practising ‘rang barse'”
September 29, 2004 — 2:25 am
Lakshmi says:
I am certain… because I have kinda experienced it.
September 29, 2004 — 6:28 am
fugney says:
Was it when you were listening to something? Or are you just trying to scare me further?
September 29, 2004 — 6:43 am
Lakshmi says:
Neither.
September 29, 2004 — 6:47 am
fugney says:
Explain.
September 29, 2004 — 6:50 am
Lakshmi says:
Ok, I’ll try. It was one of those random moments when I suddenly felt as if I was falling through space and time. I felt as if I was something larger, something immortal.. Almost as if I could see the entire cosmos as a boundless picture, one that moved nowhere. I felt myself stretched across all space and time.
Now that I’ve sounded totally fantastic and crazed-out, I have to tell you.. this was not inspired by any drink or drug. Just a moment out of nowhere.. And this experience almost jolted me out of my chair. Now, do you think I am a junkie?
September 29, 2004 — 6:55 am
fugney says:
Hmmmm…. the closest I’ve come to this is while listening to a certain semi-classical-fusion track composed by Hariprasad chaurasia… “Music of the rivers”?
Was it like… you were just sitting some place and it happened or were you involved in some other artistic activity?
September 29, 2004 — 7:49 am
Lakshmi says:
Well, music has had its own part in making me feel closer to the Divine but that’s an entirely different experience. Music has the effect of taking me higher and higher to a state of total happiness and joy where I can only be thankful that I am alive… A state of gratitude and completeness, thanks to the music.
What I talked about here is a different feeling. Dare I say it, I felt like I was part of the Universal Spirit, all encompassing, all embracing, endless and immortal.
Phani, let’s call an end to this thread b’coz it’s very tough to describe or qualify an experience of this kind. It can only be experienced; there really is no other explanation. I have a suggestion: If you haven’t read it yet, try reading Autobiography of a Yogi. I think you’ll get an idea of what I’m talking about… Sorry!
September 29, 2004 — 8:00 am